Minsan tayo'y naglakad sa isang daan. Madaming tao, malubak, at madaming bagay na nakakaabala. Inisip ko, ano bang lugar to? Gusto lang naman kita dalhin sa isa sa mga paborito kong puntahan - kung saan tayo unang nagkita. Di ko inakalang madami nang nagbago papunta roon. Nakita mo ang mukha ko na parang hindi sigurado, na para bang naliligaw.
Hinawakan mo ang aking kamay ng mahigpit. Tinanong mo kung saan ko gusto pumunta, dahil kahit saan ako patungo ay dun rin ang punta mo. Sasabay ka sa mga yapak ko. Kahit saan, kahit kailan. Kahit malubak ang daan. Kahit hindi kanais nais ang pupuntahan.
Sa mga sandaling iyon, naramdaman ko ang kakaibang katahimikan ng aking puso. Ngayon ko lang nadama na sa haba ng hinintay kong panahon, ikaw ay akin, at akin lamang - walang kahati, walang kaagaw. Naramdaman ko na handa ka nang ibigay sa akin ang sarili mo ng buong buo.
Siguro nga at may nagawa akong tama kahit papano. Kaya heto, at nandito tayong dalawa. Magkahawak kamay at magkasama, na tila hindi na mangyari na bumitaw pa sa isa't isa. Wala na akong hihilingin pang iba. Sa wakas, ikaw naman ang nagpadama sa akin ng saya. Hiniling ko na sana, ang mga sandaling iyon ay hindi na magwakas. Tumingin ako sa iyo at nakita ko ang iyong nakangiting mga mata.
At bigla akong nagising. Mag-isa, aking kama. Nagising nanaman ako sa katotohanan.
Not literally, though.
Two years ago, we received a tiny bundle of joy that came with four legs. We got a tiny Pomeranian furball pup, and it came to us as a surprise. I sneaked her inside the house one night, and the rest is history. Now, I have been dethroned as our family’s princess by a furniture-gnawing pup named Potato.
Potato at 4 months
Yup, we named her after a vegetable that can be mashed.
I originally wanted to name her Soup (because I had hipster tendencies then) but then my mom protested, and she thought Pepper was more suitable since she had pepper-colored fur.
So during our name-calling run, we tried calling her Pepper to see if she’s going to respond to it immediately.
Mom (to yaya): Pangalan niyan Pepper. Kunin mo na siya, pakainin na natin.
Yaya: Pee-per! Pee-per!
Mom: Ay, panget pala pag tinawag siya ng yaya. Wag na Pepper!
Chaka daw ang Pepper, so we had to go with another name. A friend suggested Potato, and it got stuck in our heads since then.
Potato is currently our family’s pride and joy, our lives’ main source of entertainment, and my enemy in bed. Well, in most things. Don’t get me wrong, I love her to bits! I cried when she got confined in the pet hospital. Although sometimes she annoys the hell out of me. She dethroned me from my royal chair, so I have the right to be annoyed, right? J Plus I swear, she’s such a brat. A spoiled brat with shiny fur!
One time, I was in bed sleeping and Potato was just lazing around on the floor. My mom went inside my room to tell me she’s out going shopping. As she was about to leave, she told me to take care of Potato.
Mom: Alis ako.
Mom: Hoy alagaan mo yang kapatid mo! Aliwin mo yan! Alam mo naman yan madali madepress kaya kelangan matuwa siya! Laruin mo siya!
Potato = 1. Me = 0
Me: Ang hirap matulog kagabi!! Tinapakan ako ni Potato sa tummy! Tapos nihigaan pa ako sa mukha! Sa ulo! Tapos nihila comforter ko.
Mom: Hayaan mo na yung baby natin.
Huhuhuhu. Potato = 2. Me = 0
Mom (to dad): Naghihintay ang baby ko! Himayan mo siya ng food.
Dad (while chopping up food for Potato): Kamahalan, eto na po ang pagkain ninyo!
Potato = 3. Dad = 0
Mom: Wag mong pagurin si Potato! Pag aakyat siya sa stairs, bitbitin mo siya.
(Mind you, Potato is considered obese, so she weighs like a half sack of rice. For a Pomeranian, she’s hella fat.)
Potato = 4. Me = 0
Potato was nudging me to give her a head massage. I wasn’t minding her because I was busy texting someone. So she howled for attention.
Mom: Hoy ano ka ba, massage mo siya!
Me: Eeeh nagtetext ako! Wait lang!
Mom: Haynako yang ka-text mo makakahintay. Yung baby ko hindi!
Me: Fine. (gives Potato a massage)
Potato = 5. Me = 0
Even if she’s so bratty, I can’t resist her anyway. She knows how to do the “puppy eyes” especially when she’s begging for something. She also knows how to communicate with us when she wants to do something. Bright dog, right?
How can you resist this face???
She’s also a very very sweet pup. She never forgets to give me a kiss every morning, and she loves cuddling. She’s very expressive about her love for us, so we really don’t mind her princess attitude.
I love her, and she's my favorite vegetable!
Admit it, we all have this tiny voice inside us that tells us to do crazy poses and signs once someone brings out a camera. Whether the photographer calls out a "WACKY!!" shot or not, we're all guilty of delivering the best and most intense poses. Sometimes we even take it to the next level and bring out the guns - the jeje poses.
Ginagawa niyo yan, aminin niyo!
So I came up with 5 Jeje poses that everyone needs to know... and do from time to time.
STUDIO PIC POSE
Also known as the Nilalagnat-Ka-Ba pose, this has been around since the studio pic stores (is that what you call them?) ages. I think the Studio Pic pose is the mother of all jeje poses. People have been doing them even before the word 'jeje' was born! It has the perfect combination of pa-cute and annoying, but some people just love doing it. C'mon, I'm pretty sure that you've done this at some point in your life - like when you and your high school barkada would go to the studio and have shots taken. I bet my life savings that you did this... or maybe the photographer asked you to!
I don't remember how this pose started, but I thought it used to be cute until Justin Bieber kept on doing it and someone posted a photo of it online like this...
ANAK NG TOKWA NAKAKAINIS DIBA. SARAP SIRAIN NG SCREEN.
Yeah, you heard that right! It's GANG-STAAAH! We all gon' go HAM tonight with them bitchez and blings, flashy cars and thangs...
But seriously. Although this pose might seem lame, you need extra effort to execute it well. And damn right you gotta make it look whack!
Here's a short checklist that could help you achieve the Gangstah Pose:
Swag wear - CHECK.
Durags/Hankies on your face/head - CHECK.
Gangster signs - CHECK.
Jay-Z & Kanye West attitude - DOUBLE CHECK.
P.S. To the Bloodz, Kryptz, and KKK, please DO NOT kill us. We mean no harm, bros.
Finally, a pose that has history despite it being jeje! The Hang Loose pose, or the Shaka sign, is a pose associated with the surfer culture. Meant to be as a salutation of friendship among surfers, you will often see surfer dudes and chicks using this sign in photos with their surfboards by the shore. Astig diba?
NOT WHEN YOU START USING IT THE WRONG WAY!
A lot of people do the Hang Loose in really awkward places:
in the car.
sa bathroom selfies.
and so much more!
Sige nga, saan dun sa mga lugar na yun ang may waves at present ang surfer culture? SAAN???
And last but not the least...
ULTIMATE JEJE POSE
I want to thank Marianne of notyourordinarybeautyqueen.com for being down and all jeje with me!
If you have more jeje poses, please share them with me!
A bonus jeje pose for all the jeje pose-lovers out there:
“…You say you’re lookin’ for someone
Who’s never weak but always strong
To protect you and defend you
Whether you are right or wrong
Someone to open each and every door
But it ain’t me babe
No, no, no, it ain’t me babe
It ain’t me you’re lookin’ for, babe.” - Bob Dylan
I’ve never thought I could be someone’s everything
and I never will. Human beings are imperfect and therefore, they will provide you with imperfect love. No matter how much someone loves you, and no matter what kind of love it is, it’ll ultimately fall short of the perfection that your soul seeks. It’s not a reason to shun love or be disappointed by the love you get. On the contrary, it’s all the more reason you should be more compassionate of the flawed love you receive.
There is a great strength that comes with loving someone especially when you know it’s the kind of love you’ll give your last breath for. But even in sacrificing loves such as these, we have moments of weakness, moments of unkindness and impatience where the imperfect love that we so often try to cover up is put on display. And in these moments we find that our expectation of love becomes one that can no longer solely include joy and happiness. We find that in love, we must also leave room for hurt.
From what I’ve known about love, it’s that it is beautiful but also painful. It’s as good and necessary as it is filled with frustration and let downs. Love invigorates and calms but it also empties and exhausts. It makes one want to care about everything and nothing. Love is powerful and love is powerless. Love makes everything make sense while not actually making sense of itself at all. Love just is.
And we all want it because without love in any shape or form, we start to decay and die way before we take our last breath. And so we love and we promise to give love in all the many ways we do. We promise to always be strong and true and steadfast. And maybe we make too big a promise, oblivious to the reality that our humanity will fail us and leave us short of what we wanted to give and the way that we wanted to love.
I can’t speak for all so I’ll just speak for myself: If I truly love you, I‘ll love you with all I have but it’ll never be perfect. I will hurt you in my moments of weakness and you will have moments of disappointment. I can only promise that no matter how flawed my love is, it’ll always be the best love I can give. But if you’re looking for someone who’s never weak, who’ll never call you wrong when you are, who’ll never fight with you, look elsewhere. If you’re looking for someone who
promises to be your everything and promises you perfect love, it ain’t me babe; it ain’t me you’re looking for.
Bob Dylan and Kovie Biakolo couldn't have said it better.